Living for more!

Finally

2010-05-31T23:45:00.003+08:00

Finally, finally, finally. I finally cut my hair! hahas, i am kinda missing my long hair but oh well. What's done is done. Well, 2 more days to 3 massive ICAs', less than a week to my speech presentation and a few more ICAs'. Am i prepared? NO! i haven even studied! like wth man.. I got school till 6, after which i got to go too church from 7-9. Leaves me one day to study for my POM(Management), AFA(accounting) and Stats. Crappp, plus i have DB on wed. mama mia..! Hahass..this blog is solely for my complains :D! I know rightttt..... you must be like -.-! hahahas! :D!

Today was quite fun! i enjoyed going to school and meeting Nat after that. Man, sometimes i wish i have a girlfriend. Someone to share my love with, someone that can spend time with me throughout the day, someone that can comfort me when I'm sad and celebrate with me when I'm happy. sometimes i would wonder why I'm single while my friends are all attached..am i a very bad person? maybe i am.... :(. Am i too nice to be a boyfriend? I don't know..sometimes my heart longs to be with somebody. Times like these, i know who i wanna be with. But it just seems kind of impossible cos i don't know how her reaction will be like. Whether she'll accept me or just reject me. I hate rejection and i think at least for now...What's better is that i just leave things as it is. Friends. Just friends. No matter how much it pains me so when i see her face and her smiling at me, i just gotta take it like a man. I know i really like her, to the extend that i could actually love her. But i need more self-confidence. I need to control and make sure the relationship work out. But can i? Sometimes, come to think of it, it is better to keep things the way they are. At least then i can see her all the time and anytime without worrying about anything. And if i confess, i just fear that our friendship will just turn into moments of awkward silence. she gives me the butterflies and she is so sophisticated but i just think I'm falling for her even more. I've been secretly liking her. And I'll continue to do it. As i told Dawn, "I would just be in the background, loving and caring for her, it doesn't matter if she knows or not. If she does then it's good. If not, just let me fade into the background and slowly fade away."

Gotta study!!! tomorrow!

She: What Is Love? He: up to you to decide

2010-05-29T00:39:00.004+08:00

Jean said Love.is.Love.

I thought it'd be able to sleep by 10pm today but looks like my emotions got the better of me. Today was literally bitter-sweet. Literally. 3 ICAs' next week, a few dragonboat trainings, many stuffs to be done at home (mainly packing) and church activities..I so wish i have a knife right now.. lol.

well, Love. What makes it so important to love..that i would be foolish enough to have a tattoo of love written in chinese? To me, I feel that there are different levels of love and it depends on how old(basically how effing matured) you are, to determine the level of love you have for the person. Love is subjective in most cases and people will think of different ways of expressing it. Be it fucking all day long or just simply waiting for your partner. we all have kind of experienced love at least once. (if not, press click the freaking 'X' button on the top-right hand corner of your screen right now.)

Love - sex, kiss, hug & club?
Love - waiting, waiting, waiting?
Love - responsibilities, sacrifices, longsuffering?
Love - fairytale?

Balls to me, wtf am i typing? I'm not some super pro in lit but fuck this.
These are just some random thoughts that are running through my mind at this God-forsaken hour.
Emotionalism. That's what I am feeling right now, right this instance. i feel an empty hole in my heart. i feel darkness surrounding. have you ever felt that you liked/love a person but the person just treats you like an ordinary friend? Mike, what were you thinking? You really thought you could/would date her? Wake up your idea boy. You're still as stupid as ever and with this level of emo, no girl in the right mind will date you. Don't think about it. She won't fall for you. She just won't.

God knows the pain I feel now. but the fact is - i love you.

- mikedidn'twritethis. $^$%&$%^&(^&(#^%*%^&$@%^#$#^&*(

Hey Hey!!

2009-07-12T21:56:00.006+08:00

That's Brian alright, look like a ...Better not say :)!

I look like I'm going out to find trouble, LOL!

A picture my sis took(Brian chose this out fit for me! COOL RIGHT?! HAHAS)

YO! I'm going to kick off by telling you how awesome Brian Neil, Bobby, Evonne (Shifu/Mummy), Jun Kai and Marcus are!! Hahahs..well, during the weekend, they've been with me and I've enjoyed SO much when I'm with them! Bobby, Evonne, Jun Kai and Marcus(soccer legend! hahas, marcus plays soccer well man!! own all my uncles in cage!!) have been going to church with me and stuff, and they've so supportive in everything that i do, LOVE you guys to the max!! Well, last Thursday or so, I met Brian for coffee at town after my maths tuition and i tried on his shades while we're at starbucks. Hahas, I know I look very fierce and stuff in the pic! hahas! And after that, I went home and before i know it I am having 3 periods of PE!! hahas, it's so tiring but fun! Played soccer and that Friday and it was awesome although we were'nt really on form! But tmr will have PE again! WOOO! hahas! And so, after school I went home to change to go to church for Dr. AR Bernerd's service! Hahas, it was great!! and then, we(CG and I) went to eat and eventually make my way home with my CG mates. Then, on saturday, my scheldule was packed with God, God and MORE God! Man, I Love church! Btw, i gotta say that Brian is just such an awesome guy man, he talked to me when I'm feeling down and cheered me up! He even came from Bishan to Choa Chu Kang for me just to advice me on how what to wear for service today! He is such an awesome friend! hahas, and oh yeah, his taste is as awesome as he is! hahas, well, at least better than mine. hehe, and it's been such a long weekend! Well, that's all folks! Hope ya enjoy reading my blog!! Gonna sleep now guys! Thanks for your time!!! ^^!

Convicted

2009-07-12T21:29:00.004+08:00

5.45 Hey YO! Well guys, I'm sorry for letting you down by not posting daily cos I've decided to blog once every week! hahas..well, for last week, the thing about Aaron and the girl, I FOUND OUT THAT AARON WAS ACTUALLY TRICKING ME THE WHOLE TIME!! hahas..I've gotten over it anyways. And if you realised, I haven't been going to church lately until last Friday. I didn't go to church for 1 week+ due to various reasons(more excuses =x!)..yeah, and I've been feeling very edgy and moody for the whole of last week (was trying to sort things out in my life and stuff), but now, i feel that all my burdens have been lifted up! When I went to church last Friday, Rev. Dr. AR Bernerd was preaching!!! He's SUPER awesome and cool! hahas! And so, i got rally impacted by that service where he preached about the Anthropological Hypostatic Union. Well, it's basically God union of mankind and our union with God! And Dr. Bernerd also shared about Jesus growing in 4 areas of his life when he was in human form! He grew Intellectually, Physically, Spiritually, Socially and Emotionally. And i felt that God was just speaking to me through his sermon and I so challenged to serve more and have more faith in God. I think I am ready to face the challenges and tribulations that are gonna come in my way for the days ahead! I went to church for 3days in a week, and i felt SO much better than I did when I didn't go to church. Dr. AR Bernerd really touched me a lot, and with Pst. How's AE and 'No Limitations' sermons, I felt even more assured and secured! Hahas..Church's GREAT, Life is Awesome and God is Magnificent! From a PMS-ing mood in school for the whole of last week to a ever-ready and prepared mood this coming week! Thank God man!! Hahas! I am gonna post one more post to tell you the not so holistic part of my weekend! You guys are great and thanks for reading!! :D!

WAH PEH!!

2009-07-06T23:14:00.006+08:00

Hello!!! First of all, HAPPY B'DAY BABS! hahas..today was like a huge gathering man! 20+ of us went the 'The Ship Restaurant' at shaw to eat lunch and celebrate Baba's bday!! hahs..the escargot was freaking awesome man!!! omg and the rib eye steak, seriously WAH PEH!! And then i realised that Joshua's mum is a beautician, freaking cool! Hahas..bear with me guys! I'll upload pictures soon! but for now, it's words, words and MORE words! hahas (:! Then, we went to catch the movie 'I Love You, Man' which is freaking funny and awesome lah!!! its hilarious!! GREAT movie!! After the awesome movie which is super awesome, we went to far east as Seannie, Randall and I wanted to cut our hair. I am super grateful to everyone who waited for me despite how long the guy took to cut my hair. It's like 10+ people waiting for 1 guy to get his hair cut..hahahs! Then i followed Bobby and Aaron to takashimaya because Aaron wanted to get his girlfriend a present and i needed to transfer money to my friend, and then, we went to Heeren as Aaron wanted to shop for his stuffs (I know, He's rich!), but in the end, he couldn't make up his mind. hahas!! We slacked at Spinelli to have a drink(Sunkist Twist as usual, its incredible!), and we waited for Yeesiong and gang. Oh yeah, i forgot, today is super coincidental lah! I met lots of church people in town..hahas! so cool man! And so, Yeesiong and Joshua came and they wanted to check out some stuffs. But then, when we were going.. I saw this girl checking me out, and I have to admit, I was checking her out too!! She's super cute! hahas..but then i didn't really bother to ask for her number as i didn't really have the courage, lol. Then i went up with Yeesiong and Bobby to check out some clothes while Aaron and Joshua stayed at the cafe. Then we met up with Evonne and Amelia to walk around. Suddenly, Aaron called me and told me that the girl asked about me and i was super hyp-ed up . So, i went to Spinelli to find Aaron and he told me the girl left already. Aww man, i was and am freaking sad..WASTED to the max!!! Super depressing lah. But oh well, the ocean is big i guess..hahas. Aaron teased me all the way until i left him..he was asking me, ''so how? when you choose God, you miss out on Girls. I had to choose between those two and I chose girls, how about you?'' That kinda struck me cos i love relationships..hahas, im not despo though, but that's why i was sad and so i thought to myself and i asked God, Is this a test? I'll never know, it just feels SO unfair. Gosh, after that, Josh, Aaron and I went to plaza sing where Josh went to meet his mom at Crystal Jade(another rich fella!), Aaron went to meridian and i went home(mum fetched! ;)!)! So it's a great day but there were a few UPs and DOWNs. What can i say? This is just life i guess. See ya babes! Thanks for reading and sorry if you're confused after reading it. hahas! :)

PEACE OUT A TOWN! (Baba taught me that)

2th July 2009

2009-07-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

Sup my HOMIESS!!!! Hahahas.. I'm so sorry that my blog is so dead, but that's all going to change man! Hehe..well, to summarise what happened over the past few days, all i have to say is that it was super awesome but tiring as well! Well, Pst. Joakim shared the Princess of Ireland story about how 120 youths would give up their life vest just to save other people whom they don't even know! It was so cool man and i felt so challenged to live for others (If you're interested, please call and ask me more!)! Oh yeah and after that school reopened! So, school is super cool as i get to see my classmates again! My class freaking rock man!! hahas..and as usual Baba is still as fat as usual but surprisingly when he stepped on the weighing scale, it showed 2 digits (you'll hardly see that, JUST JOKING! hahas)! I had my prelims oral examinations today(talk cock session), a little bit nervous at first though. Today is super fun lah! Classroom = Poker den, Maths Lesson = Texas Holdem' ! I ended school at like 5.30pm then went with Bobby to Ikea at queensway to meet up with Mark Sim and then we went to eat. Ikea's meatballs are fabulous, i swear!! hahas.. After dinner, i went to meet Chloe at Queensway Shopping Centre (she lives nearby that's why i asked her out) and we went to walk around the shopping centre. Initially, i wanted to look for shoes but they were all so crappy so i changed my mind. And so, i kinda send Chloe home and my mum picked me up to my cousin's place to collect something from him. hahas, he is dam cute man! Yeap, and then, My mum and I went home. I'm feeling tired now. Super tired in fact. I'm going to sleep now peeps. I know it's been a looonnngggg post so thanks for your attention babes! :D!

I got a feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night, that tonight's gonna be a good night, that tonight's gonna be a good good night ~ (TO SLEEP!!)

Shagilicious!

2009-06-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

Harlooo once again!! :D! I can only use one word to describe my day : TIRED! Haahs, i went to east coast park to play soccer today (at cage) at 12pm to 2pm. OMG, it was super shag! And then, i went to church to celebrate my friend's b'day but when Jun Kai and I went to church, we found out that he had already left (SIAN~). So, i went to do my maths revision papers, or at least i attempted to. Hahas, after doing a few parts of a question (LOL) i saw people playing basketball!!! F.Y.I, Basketball is my FAVORITE sport!! So, i got tempted to play and i did! hahas, i played b'ball until like...7+pm? yeah..around 3-4 hours. Now, I AM SUPER SUPER SHAG! Hahahs, but i had lots of fun today and I'm super happy! BARKER REVIVAL VIDEO!! WOOO! hahas..after that i went to lot 1 to find Cheryl. While waiting for her, i went to check out the roof garden. I was so tired so i decided to call Wei Rong and chat, until the indian cleaner told me that the roof garden was closed already. Hahahas, and when i tried exiting from the sliding door, it was locked! wahh super sian man, but thank God i found an exit. Hahas..then i met with Cheryl and slacked for a while. She kept saying that my sister is 'SO cute'. I have to admit my first impression was ''...les..'' , hahas but i realised that it was something else! Hahas, then i sent her home and i took a cab home. My legs feel soooo jelly-like now! The best part is that i'm going to play soccer again tomorrow! Hahahs, that's it folks! Cya soon :)!

-Love Life!
-Love People!
-Love God!

unsurpried x)!

2009-06-23T23:28:00.000+08:00

Yo all! Hmm..today is a super amazing day man! Hahas, i was suppose to go to school for remedial today but i overslept (suppose to wake up at 8am, but woke up at 11am instead!) ! And so, i missed remedial but when i saw my calender, i remembered i have tuition (OH NO!). But i have sore throat, cough and morning flu so i told my tutor that i'll be going to see a doctor and i won't be going for tuition & thank God it worked *YES! NO TUITION*! hahas, then after seeing the doctor which costs $62, my mum and i went to the supermarket to get some groceries! After that, i went home and played Texas Holdem' Poker and won lots of chips $_$! hahas.. and the day went on and on..(blah blah blah). [This is the best part of today!!] Suddenly, Cheryl smsed me asking how was i and stuff and she wanted to come down to my house to pass me an apple. When she said that, she blew her plan b'cause she wanted to surprise me initially(hahas, Loser ! Just Joking! :]) When she reached my estate, i went out to get her and she gave me an apple, liang teh and a note! (so sweet of her right? LOL, i know!) I was super touched man! haahs. Really appreciate it Cheryl!! Yeap, after that we slacked for awhile and i sent her to the bus stop :)! So, that's my day so far! :D! Oh yeah! I am going to make a facebook quiz on me, hahas..all those that knows me, be sure to try it out and see how well do you know me! LOL! I'm going off folks! Back to poker!! :D! THANK YOU CHERYL!!!

Monk-day!

2009-06-22T20:04:00.000+08:00

Yo peeps! There's nothing better than drinking a can of Ice-Cold Coke and blogging at the same time! HAHAS! Although i slept like super 'early' (3am) and had to wake up at 6am, i still had lotsa FUN despite the lethargy! So, today i woke up for Science(Chemistry) remedial in school which starts at 7.45am, but it delayed till about 8.10am? Then, Mr Faizal Syed (QL= quai lan - that's how he says it) walked towards the Science staff room and started to QL everyone (Extra to the max)! Luckily for me, i didn't get into any trouble. And so, science class went on and i tried to pay attention for 1hour+ before i actually doze off when i heard all my friends talking instead of studying. To cut it short, science remedial sucks and it didn't help :) . Then, i went to eat lunch with Aaron Kwek and Wayne Ang at Bugis street(Aaron's idea) and i went to Bukit Timah Plaza to play pool with mahh other friends, hahas. As i was super bored, i called Cheryl Leow Leow out to study (or to accompany me while i studied). Hahas!! SO FUN! She's so fun to disturb lahs! hahas!! Well, we hung out at yew tee and slacked there till 7.30+ then we took the bus 307 back home! hahas! It's so awesome to have a friend that lives so near to you! Thanks auntie Cheryl for accompanying me! hahas! To wrap it up, today is a GREAT day!

ps. Stop saying that you wanna dig my eyes out and pluck my eye lashes!

A Night's FUN!

2009-06-22T01:43:00.000+08:00

I'm BACK! Hahahs, went out with CHERYL (she asked me to bold her name -.-) just now to accompany her for dinner. She eats super little lahs!! hahas, like 1 apple pie and she's full!! But i also realised she loves to drink, as in she drank much more than she eats!! LOL! I had a blast of a time ! I got totally owned when i played stress with her lah..like 4/0 (totally crap!). Well, we took some pictures and then i sent her home :)! Thanks Cheryl for asking me out! i was suffering from boredom at home lah! hahas :]! AWESOME DAY :D! Im gonna sleep soon! Good night to all! God bless :)!

Sunny Sunday!

2009-06-21T20:53:00.000+08:00

Hi people! Well, this is my first time blogging! Hahas, so cool man! thank you Cheryl for introducing me! I feel so wierd as i always thought that blogging was for girls and it might be gay for a guy to blog. umm, oh yeah. let me first introduce myself! I am Michael (but PLEASE call me Mike - b'cause Michael just sounds soooo uncle!), I'm 17 this year and am currently studying in Anglo Chinese School (Barker Road) a.k.a acs(br). I'm super random and super hyper! hahas, i love church (Heart of God church specifically) and i love God (obviously, i am a christian)! Well, im just gonna stop here for awhile. Here's a picture that my sister did, maybe it could give you a little more info on the type of person i am :D!